If kindness is our true nature, I inquire, why are we so often unfriendly? You can only be kind if your past no longer controls you. And how do you let go of your past? Forgiveness. Someone who cannot forgive is like a city where traffic has come to a standstill. But how do you forgive? First you have to fully recognize and thoroughly feel your suffering. It is not good to hastily forgive for the sake of forgiving.
I have my scooter choices narrowed down to a Stella or Lambretta; One step closer to scooter ecstasy. ah.. the fantasies I have once I get my scooter. Oh la la... theyre too hot to list here. J
But Ill give a hint, they involve whip cream, chocolate, and cold metal pasties. Oh wait thats something else, nevermind.
Okay, To be honest I don't know how much of this I will ever fill out or update. I have been planning my own personal web site so I would rather devote what limited time i have to it. If you knew what i did on a daily basis you would think i am the kind of person who eats this stuff up. Well, I used to be. After some life changing events i realized my priorities were screwed up and frankly spending so much time on the internet became less important as I wanted to feel more alive. I don't have the energy to explain it all here. If you want to know more you will have to read my diary. Hopefully i will be able to publish it soon. (This was on a blog site before moving it here)
Our society has become more disassociated and less personable. Although i am generally a quiet person by nature i still enjoy human interaction.
Want to lose weight fast! I have the perfect weight loss program that will work for you. It is a scientifically proven method. Now, i know you are saying Michael, how can that be possible. I have tried pills, hunger strikes, the ice cream diet.They all claimed to work but i became fatter and my bank account shrunk. Well pull up a chair my friend and i will let you on a little secret that i discovered while i was in Ukraine. I tried and true method which best of all is free. Grab a raw piece of pork, which i hate by the way, and one crazy Ukrainian woman, and a chef that hates Americans. Mix all of them together and you get food poisoning. Yes you heard it correctly, Food poisoning The fast and painful way to lose 20 lbs in two weeks. If done properly you may even continue to lose weight as your desire for food completely disappears as you need to starve the worm to death which has grown fatter in your stomach..Thanks uncooked pork, you are the greatest! Your friends and family will be amazed when they hear that you blacked out and woke up on the floor in a pool of your own vomit.. Just remember to say thanks to Michael as the mere sight of food now disgusts you. The pounds of fat and muscle will melt away. You will become slimmer and more appreciative of vegetarians.
Arg...i cant sleep. 1:40 AM and my mind wont turn off.
It seems as if a healthy relatively young male such as myself can't just go out and buy a motor scooter without having his manhood questioned. Why? Is it because we live in a society where bigger is better. I mean everywhere your head turns we see "biggie fries" and "super size it". Hell, Hardee's has a burger that has 1,420 calories! My daily intake is only 1,500 calories. Granted that is for other reasons. Everything is about mass consumption. We eat large then we buy the largest, and fattest SUV's. Next we bitch because gas is too expensive. A hearse gets better gas mileage than a Hummer! You are probably wondering where i am going with all this. Bare with me a little longer. Once i was sucked into that worldly ideal, but then i woke up. I started asking a simple question,why. why do i need a 350 thousand dollar home if i can live in a 100 thousand dollar and have money left over to travel. why do i need a 50 thousand dollar SUV to drive 7 minutes to work? why do i need to shove half of a dead animal in my stomach to make me feel better? When you cant answer the "why" that should be a resounding large bell for yourself. now, you may say i am a hypocrite because i like nice things. well, no. i enjoy better quality items as much as the next Joe however, i don't see how excess indulgence will make me any happier.( thinking to myself...damn i need to make my point sooner instead of chasing the rabbit). Scooters. :) My co-workers are giving me hell because i am going to buy a scooter. somehow i become less of a man riding one. One thing that most don't understand about me is do my own thing. I don't ride on the same boat of others very often. I like to pick and choose my journeys, no matter if they wind up causing me pain later. I want to learn and enjoy life from my perspective. I enjoy the off beaten path. a road you may cross everyday might not mean much to you because you are at that spot. i may step foot onto the dirt once for the first time and it becomes my mantra. sorry.. too much back story. anyway, i feel like scooters haven't been ruined by the mainstream media yet. motorcycles were once a sign of rebellion against authority. now, they can be seen with 80 year old women riding them. scooters still have that special quality that is like opening up a book for the first time. you experience that smell and freshness for which no one else has tainted by greasy french fry fingers. i suppose i like scooters because they remind me of Europe. i like scooters because they make me feel closer to world around me in a way which is more real than a motorcycle has provided. I suppose i am a dork, a geek and a nerd. I can appreciate the normal but the child inside me continues to be fascinated by opposites.